Musing in Manhattan

Well, it has been brought to my attention that one of my blogs found here on the world wide web has not been drawing in massive crowds of people.  Not a surprise to me of course since I have been pretty much missing in action since I began working in Manhattan full time. Sure I get a post in here and there but I have not been able to “network” and “share” or “buzz up” my writing since I began the 9-5 job–which given commute time is actually 8:30 till 8 pm.  I used to be able to surf the net and bring in more traffic, but now, I can’t even get on the computer to post.  I used to be full of ideas, and now I feel like I am just staring out into the abyss.  When I get home from work at 8 pm I slather my 5 and 3 year olds with all the love I have in my heart because I missed them so much all day and then use any left over energy I have to get them ready for bed and for school the next day.  Like a hamster running on his wheel, I am getting no where with my dream of writing.  Like the Titanic, I am just treading water until inevitably the entire ship plunges to the bottom of the frigid ocean floor.  Given the choice, I’d rather write full time, however, blog writing doesn’t pay my mortgage and by the time free-lance writers hear back from publishers regarding their work they (and their children) have already lost 30 pounds because they couldn’t afford to buy groceries.  That being said, I have been working hard as a secretary in the medical field and have thus let my dream of earning a living as a writer (and enjoying my children while they are young in the process of staying home with them and completing said writing) fall off the tall, jaded side of a steep cliff and die a slow agonizing death.   Thanks to the guy who said:  you have to work harder on getting your blogs read you’d make more money.   Gee…why didn’t I think of that?  I get the whole constructive criticism thing–I really do, but must we kick a person when they’re down?  I’m so depressed. 

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